Mom was taken for a CT scan around 5:40 pm today, and the results came back as "abnormal." We're told that means some changes have occurred since the last CT scan, and there is no way to know what is causing it until the results of the biopsy are complete. (Which, maddeningly, still are not considered final because not all doctors have signed and approved them.)
So the hospital doctor, Dr. Chakraborty, ordered Mom transferred back to the ICU for close monitoring. It was a gut-wrenching change that none of us anticipated. We were getting used to having Mom in the oncology ward; she had good nurses (especially Sandra), and we had a relatively quiet room and space to sleep next to her. She had a window and enjoyed watching the sunset today.
In contrast, the ICU is cold, noisy, and scary for all of us, especially Mom, and she's in the shared "critical care bay" because the private rooms are all taken. There's no place for a loving family member to stretch out next to her and hold her hand while she sleeps. Of all the unfairness in this whole situation, that's an unnecessary frustration - we just want to be surrounding her with love and warmth, as she would for us.
We're encamped in the ICU family lounge, blankets and reading material in hand, and ready for a long night ahead. Prayers and more prayers would be appreciated.
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I am so sorry for what Mrs. Worrell is going through, plus what her family is going through. I will pray as much as I can for her to get better, and hopefully, she will get her comfortable place back!
Sending you lots of prayers and hugs Sara. These situations are truly maddening as you stated, but thankfully you all are together and you Mom is getting the care she needs. We will cotninue to lift you all up in hearts and minds!
Oh Girls, I am so, so sorry for the setback! Hopefully, it is a better to be safe than sorry situation. I am heartbroken for you all. Especially, since Judy can't be close to you at least one of you right now. You are her universe as well. I will get the word out ASAP. I know prayers are lifted up for her constantly by all the many people around the world that your mom touched their lives in some way. We will see to it that it continues. Please give her my love. Addi said a prayer for her tonight before she went to sleep as well.
So sorry you guys are having to go through this transfer back to ICU on top if everything else. It is hard on everybody having to be separated in the waiting room instead of all together comforting each other. Hang in there! Hopefully it is temporary and very short! I worked with dr. Chakraborty for a while up until roughly a year ago. She is an EXCELLENT dr. and is very thorough and prudent. You are in good hands with her, Mrs. Worrell. Hopefully this was a "better to be safe than sorry" move until they get the results and know what is causing the changes. From the details on this blog it sounds like some big steps forward have been made in the recovery process. Keep up a positive attitude and the hard work and determination. They all go a long way when it comes to recovery. I will continue to keep you all in my prayers. Thanks for the updates!
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Amy, thank you so much for your comment. It's hard to know what to think. If you know Dr. Chakraborty and believe her to be good, then I can breathe a little easier. Alicia
Dear ones, after reading the update this morning, in prayer, I reached for a book which happened to be by my computer. The book is Earthly Fathers, written by my friend Scott Sawyer. First I turned to a page that said, "she lets herself cry." I flipped then to the acknowledgments and found a quote from Judy's beloved Mark Twain: "Life does not consist mainly - or even largely - of facts and happenings. It consists mainly of the storm of thoughts that is forever blowing through one's head." My prayer is that calm find its way, at least in moments, into your storms of thoughts; that your miraculous, intelligent and fierce love, which is straight from God, allows your hope to act as a soothing balm against, and never a catalyst to, fear and frustration. I pray that He gives your hopes and goals a reasonable time frame for healing and rest. Surely keeping Sarah's quote about patients (patience) in mind is important to ward off anxiety. I know that Judy doesn't know how to work hard at resting, but I want her to begin to consider it, just for a little while. She is so good at putting work into doable chunks for her students, so I am hoping that rest and calm, a sense of peace from her amazing accomplishments and in what she will eventually accomplish again, begin to find a spot on her outline. She told Ken that she has so much to do. I may be wrong, but I'm hoping she'll begin to see allowing herself to mentally and physically rest,tough work for Judy, as what she has to do. So many times I've heard her say, "Let's get to work!" Please God, if it be your will, let her see rest -as a tool for healing- as her work right now.
My children Dyar and Morgan and Annie send so much love to their teacher and friend. She is part of who they are.
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